Daily Mood Quote

 

“With friends like that, who needs enemies”

~Unknown Author

I have been seriously considering quitting the daily mood quotes blog. Erasing it, because I am struggling to find the peace and happiness that once came so easy for me. Recent events in my life have caused me to be battling the “hatred demon” that is in all of us. It can not be denied and can only be destroyed when one forgives the awful people they have encountered in their world. There is a saying that states, “With friends like that, who needs enemies” I don't know who said this; but I wonder, did they have “friends” like I have run into? Oops, did I say that out loud? You bet I did and here is why, I am pissed and frankly sick and tired of mean people and “dag nab-it,” why do I keep running into them. Are there any honest people out there anymore? I wonder that, because recently I have been evicted from my home, not because I couldn't make the mortgage, but because I couldn't pay the rent. Why you may ask. My husband and I both had lost our jobs during the recession (that is in earlier blogs). OK short version: My husband's boss took government loans and spent them on himself, then got caught, company closed, goodbye job. I lost mine in an acquisition where 5,300 jobs, including mine, were cut. It was rotten, downright miserable as our reserves were drained and things kept costing more.

So, from the movie Network as Howard Beale played by the late Peter Finch said, “I don't have to tell you things are bad. Everybody knows things are bad. It's a depression. Everybody's out of work or scared of losing their job. The dollar buys a nickel's worth, banks are going bust, shopkeepers keep a gun under the counter. Punks are running wild in the street and there's nobody anywhere who seems to know what to do, and there's no end to it. We know the air is unfit to breathe and our food is unfit to eat, and we sit watching our TV's while some local newscaster tells us that today we had fifteen homicides and sixty-three violent crimes, as if that's the way it's supposed to be. We know things are bad - worse than bad. They're crazy. It's like everything everywhere is going crazy, so we don't go out anymore. We sit in the house, and slowly the world we are living in is getting smaller, and all we say is, 'Please, at least leave us alone in our living rooms. Let me have my toaster and my TV and my steel-belted radials and I won't say anything. Just leave us alone.' Well, I'm not gonna leave you alone. I want you to get mad! I don't want you to protest. I don't want you to riot - I don't want you to write to your congressman because I wouldn't know what to tell you to write. I don't know what to do about the depression and the inflation and the Russians and the crime in the street. All I know is that first you've got to get mad. You've got to say, 'I'm a HUMAN BEING, God damn it! My life has VALUE!' So I want you to get up now. I want all of you to get up out of your chairs. I want you to get up right now and go to the window. Open it, and stick your head out, and yell, 'I'M AS MAD AS HELL, AND I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS ANYMORE!' I want you to get up right now, sit up, go to your windows, open them and stick your head out and yell - 'I'm as mad as hell and I'm not going to take this anymore!' Things have got to change. But first, you've gotta get mad!... You've got to say, 'I'm as mad as hell, and I'm not going to take this anymore!' Then we'll figure out what to do about the depression and the inflation and the oil crisis. But first get up out of your chairs, open the window, stick your head out, and yell, and say it: "I'M AS MAD AS HELL, AND I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS ANYMORE!” Glad I got that out; I feel better. How about you?

Funny thing, the landlord knew what was happening, we kept her informed of this. We told her and her response was, “Don't worry about it, look after the kids; I'll just be receiving checks from you well into my retirement.” She changed her mind. Let me be clear about one thing; It doesn’t bother me that she changed her mind, life happens and things change... its the way she handled it that bothered us. Actually, it was deliberately hurtful and vindictive, very, very, hurtful. Back to mad as hell, hurt and frustrated.

Let's back up a little, you see nearly three years ago, my husband and I and our children where living in an apartment. It was nice and we were happy there (however, many of our friends were embarrassed because we “lived” in an apartment). We were also healthy there. But a friend of ours who owned a home was moving, she got a job down south and wanted to rent out her home. She called us and in June nearly three years ago, we went to view the house. It was okay, a three bedroom ranch in what seemed to be a quiet neighborhood. She wanted a little too much money for the place, but we could tighten our belts and make it work. She dangled words like, “you can make it your own” “you can paint it” just take care of my house. There was no rental agreement, no hand-shake, no documentation, no formal walk-through, nothing. Just an amount and her bank deposit slips. We thought it a little weird, but she was no business woman and it showed. (Side note: What a freakin' head fake.) Her puzzling answers and vagueness to simple questions like “do the appliances work?” Left us wondering, but we “trusted” her, she was a friend. We had known her for seven years, she was like one of our family, an old aunt or something. She even babysit our children when they were younger. We had absolutely no reason to distrust her.

Several months later, we moved in, but before the first piece of furniture entered the house, my husband and I inspected the house and made a list of our discoveries... it was surprising. To be continued tomorrow, hopefully.

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Thank you for reading.